Two months..

Today was another monthly ceremony for Subhash's mom. We did it at home and crossing fingers for that. This time we both were worried about being able to do it at home since we were having a tough time finding the right purohit/cook for it. Thanks to his aunts, in no small way, we finally found and closed on Friday night within 2-3 hours!! And slept in peace. Today we started around noon and wrapped up around 3.30. One more down, 11 more to go. I am hoping and wishing we can get everything done as per plan, at home.

Two months past how is life? Routine, moving at a nice comfortable pace. We get adjusted one more bit every day.

Somehow I felt in the few days following her death, that going forward, we don't have to worry about anything. Somehow, through some unknown medium,  I think a message came across to me that she will take care of things for us going forward. When things go wrong, I actually feel someone is fixing them up. Or making it a little less painful to bear. I believe it is her, maybe it is just my faith :)

Again, whenever I look back on the past year, I feel good that we did what best we could for her. Especially in that last 10 days she was at home. I fed her the last meal she ever had. Gave her the last bath she ever took. Huge satisfaction factors. No regrets. I think this keeps me in peace.